As I reflect on God’s faithfulness in Abraham’s life, I am inspired to remember God is faithful in my own.
I’ve been a worship leader for the last 15 years. I don’t think I truly understood what worship meant until my mid-twenties. As I look back, I am so grateful for the Lord’s protection and for God’s faithfulness in my life. The mistakes I’ve made over the years in worship and God’s grace through them have shaped who I am today. I’ve let distractions in a large room shift my eyes from God, but He led me back to Himself. I’ve listened to the lies of the enemy tell me I have no right to lead others, but He spoke to me through scripture to remind me that’s not true. In college, the stage became an idol, but God used mentors in my life to humble me. Although I’ve made many mistakes and expect to continue doing so, God has held my hand through it all. He has shown me His grace, His mercy, and His faithfulness – especially when I falter. God is so good; I don’t deserve His goodness, yet here He is.
The older I get, the harder it has become to sing. I’ve had numerous health issues that have impacted my ability, and it’s not as easy as it was when I was younger. This past year, the enemy has used my health to make me anxious and disinterested in worship leading. It has become easier for me to want to say no and harder for me to give over my anxieties to the Lord. I am not currently on the other side of it. This isn’t one of those stories where I get to say, “God healed me and now I’m better than ever!” This is the middle. The struggle. The waiting. Even still, I know that He is faithful because He has been there countless times, and they never were in my time.
So today, as I am reminded of God’s faithfulness in all areas of my life, I know that He can and will do it again. He is faithful, and so I am blessed each day He allows me to sing. Each day I have this voice, my ears can hear, my eyes can see, and I have breath in my lungs… I will choose to worship Him with my whole heart.
I’ll leave you with the song that He brings to my mind often. The song that reminds me not to give up on Him, the song that brings comfort amidst the trial, and the song that God has used to show me He’s not done yet.
All my life you have been faithful
All my life you have been so, so good
With every breath that I am able
I will sing of the Goodness of God
Goodness of God – CeCe Winans
Carryn Osborn
Carryn is a part of our Christ’s Church family and serves as a host with our creative team and Foster Care Communities. She is the Connection Manager at Schuber Mitchell Homes and enjoys planning events for her coworkers. Carryn loves traveling, spending time with her nephews, and going on walks and yapping with friends.
