A Change In Direction
“For we know that in all things, God works for the good of those who love the Lord, who have been called according to His purpose.” Romans 8:28
When I first read this verse in my young teenage years, it seemed like a great promise. I believed that the “good” Paul is talking about here meant that all my plans would succeed exactly how I imagined. As I traveled seven hours away from my home to pursue these plans in college, I felt reassured that my ideas would come to fruition.
I planned to be a youth minister. I would finish my degree in four years and take on the ministry world. Living seven hours away and attending Bible college was just a small stepping stone until I moved back home. Back home is where I would settle: married, near family and friends.
But that wasn’t the case. I quickly realized that my career path wasn’t the right fit. I was now looking at a new degree and the possibility of more schooling. Several important relationships ended, and I was still far from home and feeling very alone. I watched my plans fall apart and suddenly I questioned Paul’s words “…God works for the good of those who love the Lord…” I knew I loved the Lord, and yet I did not see any good in sight.
I wish I could go back and tell my younger self how great the “good” really is. I did finish my degree but then pursued further schooling and now love my job as an Elementary School Counselor. I still live hours from home but have found a community here that feels like family. Even in our two years of marriage, I have witnessed my husband and my plans change and mold. But in return, I’ve watched us grow together and lean harder on our Father.
In the moment, all the change did not feel good. There have been many hurts, tears, and pleas to God. But as I look back, I see the “good” Paul was talking about. I thought it was about me, but all along everything pointed back to Him. God has been working on my behalf all this time, and He is faithful to His promises.